Bring out your inner CHEF: Lentil Soup

Bring out your inner CHEF: Lentil Soup

Feb 2010

So we are already one month in to 2010 and what have we done? Most people have just continued on with their lives and their new years resolutions are out the window. Now for me what have I done? I have started my spring semester in school, I start my workout regiment this week and I am moving in a few months. So I am doing more in 2010 then I have done in a long time. We are buying a house this year what a great accomplishment and I was accepted to Johnson and Wales which is now one of the best Culinary schools in America.

February is one of those months that is the stepping stone to more winter or the end of winter.... Well it snowed last night and this morning so I guess we are in store for more winter. I am tired of winter at this point I want it to be May so that I can pack up my stuff and MOVE....

I hope that everyone has done something this year or at least is sticking to their resolutions. This year should be the beginning of your accomplishments or the continuation of them... If you are having problems figuring out what you should be doing in life then sit down and analyze what you have done and what you really want to do.... Once you figure out at least one or two things you want start setting goals to accomplish them.

Here's to the next 10 months of 2010.

2009

With the close of another year I regret to say I am not looking forward to starting a new one. With the close of each year we have to admit what we did not get done, what we want to change in hopes that we actually stick to the plan and accomplish them in the new year. With the coming of a new year we also have to realize that we are getting older and our demise is that much closer.

Funny 2009 has taught me to be a little rough around the edges. I have shunned the world and cut off my associates from the military except for one or two I do not talk to anyone. So what does that tell you about my accomplishments for the outstanding year of 2009? Not too much, huh.....

Well, I am here to declare that I really don't care if I am at the top or bottom of life at this very moment I am confused, alone and not dealing with some things all that well. People lie, cheat and maliciously hurt people for no good reason. If you knew better than you are a negligent friend and not someone I would like in my life... Oh yeah I don't talk to you anymore.

Wow, 2009, really? School is the one good thing I can say actually came out of all of this. I have come to the realization that nothing in the end really matters anymore. Do for yourself because in reality no one else will do for you. If you find your soulmate then you found yourself and that is the missing link not apes or monkeys or god or any of the other crap that people want us to believe. Accomplish what you are wanting in life the thing that fulfills that empty void.

Money is what makes most happy. If this is what drives you then go out and get it. If not then chose a simpler less complex way of living. 2010 should be your stepping stone to new horizons.

To the non-educated, less than eloquent and far from couth pieces of humanity you should really self-analyze before passing judgement. Step outside your dirty box and realize you have been hating the things in people around that are the very essence of what you are.

LETS RING IN THE NEW YEAR....

2010

Struggle

Do I give up when I feel the darkness closing in

Difficulty breathing, pressure on my neck

Forced down with no resolution in sight

Everyone is gone, I am.... alone

How do I overcome something I don't know or can't see

Without support, without love, loneliness is my new best friend

Darkness overcomes me

No light of day, no sign of night, just cold dull emptiness

This is the end of my struggle

Questions

Some people ask questions knowing the answer they are given is not what they want to hear... So I ask you this - why ask the question in the first place? Is it to make yourself feel good or maybe to be heard.....

In life we go day by day wondering what the actual meaning of life is.... I don't have the answer to that question because if you really think about it everyday we get older and as we get older we come closer to facing our maker... Living to die what a strange statement but yet so true. We are born we grow to whatever age it is be it to young or average or elder we are really just living to die.....

Oh yes you can argue the fact that people are making an impact and there is more to life than death but the reality is life is air, chaos, and ups and downs and death is, well death is peace. hhhmmmm I bet you never put it in that perspective or even thought about life in such a way. Well I am not trying to take your high on life aspect away I am just saying look at what life really means to you... But the end result for ALL of us is death.

Make of it what you will cause the truth is tomorrow could be your last day. With that enjoy your chaotic, run of the mill lifestyle and hope that you made a difference if that is what you strive for otherwise hope that you made yourself and the ones you love happy.

What is love to you?

So as I read some famous and some anonymous quotations I learn that love conquers all and defeats many but also educates us at the same time. I am still learning what love is to me and why love takes on some many different shapes and manipulates people into doing and becoming something they are not. Here are some quotations that may help you understand or start asking questions to figure what love is to you and if you truly have found LOVE.

Maulana Jalalu'ddin Rumi :

"Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along."

Anonymous:

"Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same."

"A person can be in love with someone forever till the end of time. But if that person doesn't tell or show the feelings of love, it will be just another person living in a dream, lost of true love."

James Bryden:

"Love does not die easily. It is a living thing. It thrives in the face of all life's hazards, save one: neglect."


Jeff Melvoin:

"Is love supposed to last throughout all time, or is it like trains changing at random stops? If I loved her, how could I leave her? If I felt that way then, how come I don't feel anything now?"

One of my favorites:

Percy Bysshe Shelley:

"Love withers under constraints: its very essence is liberty: it is compatible neither with obedience, jealousy, nor fear: it is there most pure, perfect, and unlimited where its votaries live in confidence, equality and unreserve."

Something that makes sense in a world of madness..

I was reading and came upon a quote that makes more sense than most. I hope you feel the same since we all are here together in this waking nightmare of what we call life. It is what it is and it is what we make it. The only person to blame for your life is yourself. If you disagree then you are in denial, sorry friend.... Wake up live in reality for reality is what you make of it. Your reality is your perception on life.

"The world as it stands is no illusion, no phantasm, no evil dream of night; we wake up to it again for ever and ever; we can neither forget it nor deny it nor dispense with it" - Henry James