Why am I so indecisive?

I know what I want yet at the same time I am stuck between reality and fantasy.

What is it that I really want?

Do I go on acting as if I know that everything is ok and that I am a civilian.

All I know is the military.

Do I go back and ruin what I have in my life now and settle for familiarity?

My life to me is spinning in a circle of lifeless emotions with no real direction.

My heart flutters every time I see a text or e-mail from you

Your voice makes my day seeing you smile makes my night

Somehow with you my life has direction you are my medium, my equilibrium

With nothing making sense and being a broken compass my life no has meaning

Maybe there is a meaning for my indecisiveness...

Could it be YOU?

Ripple

Are you the calm in the storm??

Or are you the ripple in a calm lake??

There are two things in life. The ordinary person or the extraordinarily original person. Both live in and around us and we may work with them. The question is which one are you?

We can make something of our lives or we can go with the flow and just be mainstream non-thinkers to put it simple. If you are the mainstream go with the flow type there is no real thought in our daily process. You get up same time everyday, shower, dress and go to the same boring job. Now the ripple maker is someone that gets up at different times does something different as much as possible does not do the stereotypical dress code for the work place. They seem happy most of the time for no apparent reason. This baffles the mainstream calm person. How is it we both work for our money but the ripple is much happier?

Well the simple answer is the ripple is doing what they want within reason. We all have a ripple in us it's just the few that take real advantage of it that seem to enjoy their short time here.

Maybe we should all at one point in our meaningless lives make or be that.....


RIPPLE.

The Economy

So with all the talk of the recession and the stock market crash I can imagine how a lot of people are on pins and needles. The funny thing is if you are really paying attention to the news and analysts then you would notice no one really knows what's going on or they are just being undeceive asses.

Early this morning while turning to go down Wall St from Broadway I was stopped by a radio DJ to interview me on the issues with the stock market. Funny that he asked me questions that I really haven't given too much thought to. The government is trying its best to cushion the impact the recession would have if or when it happens.

First, we have Bush trying to leave on all right terms by giving us an extra refund check... hhhhmmmmm strange that sounds like something that someone had put in place for us before when we as the great USA had finally come out of deficit. I do believe that was Bill Clinton that did that.

Second, they just cut the interest rate on loans (mortgage and other) and credit cards by 3%. (Federal Reserve emergency cut.)

So what will number three be? I can't wait to see what it is........ Yeah that's what I say now but everything is seeming to go in a good way, but the tables can turn quickly we just need to be aware of the things going on around us.

Lets just hope that we start doing better and we go up instead of down. One of the major concerns for people unsure should be....

THE ECONOMY...

New Beginning

It is time for me to step ahead of the past and start fresh with a new beginning.

The first thing on this path will be to cut off any loose ends, anyone that was a friend or I thought they were but they do no effort of being one. CUT

Second every goal I achieve is for myself not for someone else.

Third things that make me happy in life need to come first I am tired of always trying to please everyone else.

Fourth take some me time once in awhile discover what I have been missing find what really makes me happy and do it.

Fifth try to ensure I have a stable and happy family life at home.

These are a few things that will guide and help me start my new beginning. So if you are a true friend and you want to stay in contact do it I am not the only one that has a phone or an e-mail. Put some effort in to it no one said everything was easy. I hope that everyone has a new beginning at some point in there life this is my....

NEW BEGINNING.

2008

So it's starts the beginning of the new year is here and time for us to start fresh.

I am starting to go back to the gym, eat right again and hopefully get a promotion. Things that have changed over the past few years are major but I have to stay focused and make sure that everything stays on track. With the new year I have planned to do four major things and would like them all to be done prior to 2009.

1. Get back in shape and help my family (health wise)

2. College

3. Save Money for our house

4. Travel

So those things are all things I better have accomplished prior to this year ending. The funny thing with resolutions is that people can say the greatest things in the world but it takes discipline and will power to accomplish those goals. So I set different things, I just set things I want to accomplish not things that sound good. Everyone has their motives but mine are going to be accomplished.

Wishing you the best for:

2008