2007 in a nutshell

So today is the last day of "2007". What a great and wondrous year this has been.
You may wonder what I have been up to over the past year so here is a quick recap.


I finally experienced that wonderful feeling of being able to quit a job.
I am back with DHL Express in Manhattan and doing what I do best making the best numbers for NYC.
I went upstate on my first family vacation to the Catskills and that was GREAT.
Went to Cooperstown (Baseball Hall of Fame)
I'm getting financially stable and building towards my dream.
Been lucky enough to have someone very special that cares and supports me.
Trying new Restaurants more and more.
Making new or improving old recipes.
Did not get to see my friends that much this year.
Did not see my family at all this year.
I have been fortunate enough to have a job that allows me the money to enjoy my high standards in life... :)
I have my little bookie back and have enjoyed the summer, fall and winter with her.
I have two new baby cousins and a nephew. He is the cutest....
Went to the Rangers game with the fam.
Mets games were great!!!!

Well that sums it up that is my:

2007 IN A NUTSHELL

Look out tomorrow for my 2008 resolutions.

Lost....

Why do you feel like you are going somewhere and it's the right way but at the same time you feel so lost? At work I feel drained, tired, unmotivated and hypocritical. For some reason I know that I am determined to accomplish my goals but at the same time I no longer know what they are???? Confused and guilt ridden with the clock ticking and my mind going in a thousand different directions. I just need to jump on one track and ride it out.... Can I do this or will I end up at a dead end and feeling once again LOST...?

Do we all go through this in our lives? Is anyone truly happy in what the are doing now? I mean 110% pure satisfaction and they have no regrets? I still think I know what I want but to get that is going to be very difficult since I was never granted the opportunity to just go to college since I chose to protect the nation. Now I want to get a degree and my Chef certification and do what I love.

All I need is a light to help guide me along the right path and push me to go, I have become one lost lazy soul.... This is not me and I want to be found and once again a happy and content clown.... Help me, for right now I know that I am....


LOST

HALLOWEEN

Yes it is that time again. This wonderful holiday where we can scare the caca out of one another. What other holiday can you just go up to a stranger and scare them or ask for candy? NONE So for one day we are kind of like BUMS... LOL

I know that children and adults a like love this spooky holiday. We can't get enough of that adrenaline rush from being frightened. Everyone has at least one friend that thinks they can not be scared and you bring them with you to a haunted house and they scream like a petrified BEACH and when you come out unharmed on the other end joke about how they were not scared and the whole thing sucked..... WTF we know you almost had an accident so stop playing everyone is scared at one point or another.

So tell me what are your fears and to all of my friends if I see you next Halloween lets face them.... This is a great challenge for some others are the friend above mentioned and we all know you are really scared. So get your best ghost stories ready and your scariest costumes out. I can't wait for the candy, I love this great day known as.....

HALLOWEEN.....

Keep up

With all this constant change in life it is sometimes hard to keep up. We get lost in a moment, thought, the crowd or just lost all together. When do we find time for ourselves? You know to really analyze what we have accomplished and where we are in our lives. Sometimes to keep up we need to step aside slow down a stride and look at who we have become.

We always say that we will stay in touch and always remain friends with the ones we leave behind. But really how many of you can honestly say I have always kept all of my friends? NONE. If you did you are a liar since I keep in touch or attempt to but it is not my fault if they do not keep up.

So how do we maintain business, family and personal life? Time management, good organization and having your priorities in order is a good start. But is this enough to keep up? The things we learn in life are all things that can help us keep up with all of the other aspects in life.

So I challenge all of you to maintain your lifestyle but also try and stay on the same page as me and just.....


KEEP UP.....

OH YA

Tell me that you have one of those days, you wake up and the only thing that comes to your mind is "OH YA"!!! I am having one of those days everything seems to just be great. I have a rough past two weeks but today just woke up on the right side of the bed if you know what I mean. I think I will go out and find something to do it is nice and crisp out so a hoody and adidas tear aways. Doing it big today LOL.

I can only hope that the rest of the weekend goes as good. Let me know what you have planned for the weekend? I will let you know what I did this weekend and if it was worth the trouble. So go ahead and do what you do and have a great day you know the one that makes you say...

OH YA.....

Pumpkin Picking

So kiyara, me, Maria and Danielle all went pumpkin picking a couple weeks ago. I forgot that it is really dirty out there and I wore my NY Yankees shoes and they looked like caca when we got home. We had a great time getting apples, squash, and pumpkins. The weather was great and it was the first time since I was a little kid that I went and did this. I hope that I am forming new traditions as a family for Kiyara.

We are all going this weekend again to go to the huge corn Maze and get cider so that should be interesting I am actually looking forward to it. I hope that everyone is taking full advantage of this beautiful fall season upon us. Let me know if you go

PUMPKIN PICKING.....

Fall

My favorite season is upon us. Most people enjoy Winter or Summer but the fall to me is the most extravagant of all seasons. The trees turn beautiful colors and seems to give the just plain green world life. The air has a slight crispness to it and people tend to cuddle more with the one they love. Hot Chocolate, Tea, soups, warm bread and pastries are all part of this great experience so why doesn't everyone love fall as much as I?

I love getting ready for the holidays and bundling up in a nice sweater and scarf. This is the best time of year for me going out and picking apples baking every type of desert I can think of... Taking time to show Kiyara the beauty of the fall is a great adventure. Halloween is exciting as well Kiyara gets to pick a pumpkin and go on a hayride and haunted houses. All the joys of childhood.

I get to share all the experiences as a family this year and I am really looking forward to it. Trips out to eastern long island for the fall harvest festivals and wine tasting. OUTSTANDING that is one word that comes to mind. I will let you know how my fall goes. Just remember that the next time you complain about the heat of summer we can always look forward to the chill and beauty of.....

FALL

DIRME

Dirme lei pensa di me.
Dirme sono il solo un lei vuole essere con per il riposo della sua vita.
Dirme questo è reale e non sogno.
Dirme ho trovato il mio un vero amore.
Dirme che lei me ama l'intero dal cuore.
Dirme che che abbiamo è semplice ed ancora complicato allo stesso tempo.
Dirme la maniera sento è il vero amore.
Dirme mi sveglierò vicino a lei per finché vivo.
Dirme un'ultima cosa.
Dirme lei ME AMA.

DIRME

To the Greatest.....

Te quiero hoy como yo hice el día que encontramos.
Usted es la belleza es en ello forma de verdad.
Esta cosa que tenemos es nada menos que la perfección.
¿Le puedo hacer yo tan feliz como usted me ha hecho?
Apenas algo yo sé que usted puede saber y si no yo le digo ahora.

TE quiero MAMI ATRACTIVA.

TE AMO

Porque tú eres tú
y yo vivo soñándote
porque mi mundo son tus sueños
y tus sueños son deseos.
porque te quiero
y quererte es mi camino
El camino que amo: tú.

Enchanting

For a moment I was enchanted by the glow of your face with the fading light of the sun setting in the distance gave you a radiance that is utterly indescribable. I knew the day we met everything would work out and be something that is so enchanting I do not know how to describe it other than that. You took my breath away with your soft touch and the way you whisper the words I love you in to my ear sounds like a gentle breeze passing in the leaves. Could I have been this fortunate to have a the opportunity to woo someone as enchanted as you?

Its funny now that I speak of it I love the little things you do for me and most of all I love the way you get frustrated over the littlest things. So you have captured my attention now what will you do with it? Can you remain as enchanting as the first day I met you, or will this fade with time as they say so many things do? I would only hope that this lasts forever, my love for you has no ending, boundary or stipulation to alter the path we have chosen.

Now I leave you with this I am here to love you and make you happy to give you something everyone else has failed to do until now. I want you to know that this is real there is no, "for the time being", the new love feeling, nor is this a dream. I am here real flesh and blood willing to put my heart out there to possibly get hurt but hopefully not.

You have a certain way about you something so rare it is hard not to say that you are so very........


ENCHANTING!!!!!!

Taking it all in.....

So life is crazy and we love that, well most people do. Change is good but sometimes just doing the same old thing is great. I love Sundays because it is a day for me to relax and be lazy while spending time with 2 great loves in my life. Now that I have a job that is once again Mon - Fri. I have family time on the weekends and we can start going on trips doing something worth while during the summer months.

I have been adjusting to have the little bookie back for the last couple months and she amazes me everyday. The thing is she has the intelligence of a teenager but lacks the enthusiasm to do the work we assign her. I want her to be ahead of her class so she is not the one struggling to get on the same page as everyone else. She has a great amount of energy and I love that because it keeps me on my feet.

My love you are probably the best thing that has ever happened to me other than bookie. You support me through everything sometimes you are a bit harsh but I know you don't mean it. I love the way your voice sounds when you first call me and when you tell me you love me it is the greatest feeling ever. I love you and can't wait to go on some excursions with you and bookie this summer.

Right now I am just trying to sit back, relax and let the good times roll!!!! Just try to enjoy every minute that you have here nothing is for sure and there are no guarantees that we will be here tomorrow or have what we have today. Take what you will from life I take the positive and leave the negative so that I can bask in the greatness of what we call life. So for now I'm just trying to....

TAKE IT ALL IN!!!!

Something's missing....

You ever wake up in the middle of the night and realize damn there's something missing?
I have to get up by 0230 to make it to work by 0500 and I have been having trouble sleeping.
I know why because something is missing...
I wake up and notice there is nothing to wake up next to and there is no one sending me messages the day through.
Your touch and the way you look at me or the way you smile in the morning when I say something stupid.
I miss your smell it has all but faded from the pillow and now it is that much harder.
I miss those small things they made my day that much better.
DHL is the same but my role is different and your not here to support me through it.
I don't have my best friend to call or see and confide in.
This is not something I thought would be so difficult.
But for some strange reason I feel lost, confused and plain again.
With you I feel like I can accomplish anything and you make me feel like I am the greatest person in the world.
This is something that I need you to know because when you are gone I miss you so much more than you will ever fathom.
I am here waiting for you I want you to know that right now I know there's


SOMETHING MISSING....

Relief

I have decided what is best for me and mine. Was to go back to DHL of course for a little more $$$$. But hey we all need that in our lives and it was a great feeling to go back to work and everyone was so ecstatic to see me. I was grateful to come back to open arms since they did in fact ask me to come back not once but twice... Hmmmmm what can I say I make a great impression... LOL

You don't know or maybe you do the great relief that is lifted from your shoulders when you finally get back where you belong. It is frustrating to work so hard and make nothing for it. Don't get me wrong I love working ask anyone that really knows me.... I just can't fathom staying at a dead end job and not making any money with ridiculous hours and days. So sometimes we make mistakes but there is always something or someone to help us get back on track. Thank you babe for helping in supporting me get back to where I belong.

You know what's next? I think you know what I want and if not for the time being we have....

RELIEF

Special Report 7/12/07

So our favorite President GW was on and cut off my Rachel Ray show with his ignorant press conference. To tell the truth I watched to hear what incompetent BS he had to spew today.. This is the best puppet on a string we have had in a long ASS time. How can an illiterate hillbilly, redneck, hick from texASS become our president? We really need to take back control of the government (by the people, for the people???) . HELLO.

Did anyone watch this hypocrite today? If so I hope that it pissed you off every time this jackass had a smile or shitty smirk on his face like the Iraq war is a god damn game (this is not risk the board game) take a risk and we may win for a cause that has yet to be clearly defined and changes every time he opens his mouth. If you served or still are serving specially during the duration of this peace keeping mission (Operation Iraqi Enduring Freedom)..... I know you are tired of funeral details for young men and women and handing that folded flag to a grieving spouse or parent. The worst is having them hold on to your hand look you in the eyes with tears and ask why and thank you at the same time. All you can do is give your condolences and proceed as the NCO of the detail with out showing any emotion, remember we may not show weakness remain professional at all times. I am tired of hearing my fellow brothers and sisters in arms being killed and there is no end or resolution in sight.... So we just keep hearing the deployments will be more frequent and longer tours???? Come on now enough is enough.

I am going back in to the service because I am a soldier and that is what I do best I miss it and I choose to be one that stands up and protects against enemies both foreign and domestic. But that does not mean put us in harms way for a reason that has changed how many times and now seems to really not have had a real cause?

This man that is supposed to represent America is standing up there and making us go round and round the mulberry bush waiting for the weasel to pop... Funny right but the weasel already popped it is BUSH..... We just don't have a congress with a back bone right now to say enough is enough and you have abused your power and we are going to impeach you....

Back to this mornings "Special Report" he talked around every question and at one point a reporter named Martha asked: "When Sept comes and we have still made no progress and military leaders are sending feedback that this is pointless what will you do then?" Bush answered by saying: "You are asking me to tell you what my state of mind will be at that time. I will have a press conference then and you may ask me then." COME THE FUCK ON... That is the most Horseshit answer I have ever heard.... Just had to get this out and tell all my fellow troops I miss and and love all of you keep your morale high, stay alert, stay alive and keep up the FIRE!!!!!!!


This is all due to a.....

SPECIAL REPORT 7/12/07

Alone

Lying, thinking Last night How to find my soul a home Where water is not thirsty And bread loaf is not stone I came up with one thing And I don't believe I'm wrong That nobody, But nobody Can make it out here alone. Alone, all alone Nobody, but nobody Can make it out here alone. There are some millionaires With money they can't use Their wives run round like banshees Their children sing the blues They've got expensive doctors To cure their hearts of stone. But nobody No, nobody Can make it out here alone. Alone, all alone Nobody, but nobody Can make it out here alone. Now if you listen closely I'll tell you what I know Storm clouds are gathering The wind is gonna blow The race of man is suffering And I can hear the moan, 'Cause nobody, But nobody Can make it out here alone. Alone, all alone Nobody, but nobody Can make it out here alone. Maya Angelou A poem that meant a great deal to me by a poet that was outstanding.....

Love.....

Can you make someone love you?
Is it love when you know that you found the one that you want to spend the rest of your life with?
Or is just the beginning of something that will hopefully grow into full blown love?
Do we know when love is there or do we just hope that the love we give is returned?
Does it matter what they look like to everyone else or will what you thought was love be abandoned due to peer pressure?
If you really are in love do your eyes stray more than just for a glance?
Does love change your entire outlook on life?
When you are with the one you love do you think about when they will leave or do you wish the moment never ends?
Do you have what it takes to be in love and make it work? (that means good, bad, low and high times)
If you are away from each other only for a small increment of time are you missing them and constantly thinking of them?
Do you ever think that maybe this is not the right one?

These are all questions at some point in time you may ask your self or think of when you are just trying to figure out what it is you have or want. No one said love was easy and you need to realize that it doesn't hold everything together you and the person you are with are the glue and that means you have to work together to stick together. Love is like a house it is built on a foundation but at times it needs small repairs sometimes major renovations. The key I have found is small simple things mean a lot well at least to me they do... The things I do is make time for just me and the person I am with which means I have cooked dinner and paired it with some nice wine and a simple dessert. Then we watch a movie or play a board game or perhaps I pack a picnic and we go to the park or down to a place that is special for the both of us. You can also do things more romantic to jazz it up a bit like flowers and chocolates sent to the job, or a day get away to somewhere you have planned out and you have reservations at a nice Suite and Restaurant. So tell me what you think about this subject and if you have come up with some good ideas to keep it fresh in the arena of....

LOVE

Party Like a Rockstar.....

All right I guess everyone wants to do this at some point in their lives... Right? So when is the right time...? You tell me they say your too young, too old and I think its time you should grow up... WTF Please tell me the medium and when I can "party like a rockstar"?

Actually, I was always the nerdy one of all my friends I am more of the home body type but hey sometimes I want to go out and just never do it.... PUNK that is the first word that comes to mind, right? So tell me about some of your crazy times when you just didn't give a &%$#!!!! How did it end up?

Let's see who has the best experience and really did....

PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR......

At Last

At last, when all the summer shine
That warmed life's early hours is past,
Your loving fingers seek for mine
And hold them close—at last—at last!
Not oft the robin comes to build
Its nest upon the leafless bough
By autumn robbed, by winter chilled,—
But you, dear heart, you love me now.

Though there are shadows on my brow
And furrows on my cheek, in truth,—
The marks where Time's remorseless plough
Broke up the blooming sward of Youth,—
Though fled is every girlish grace
Might win or hold a lover's vow,
Despite my sad and faded face,
And darkened heart, you love me now!

I count no more my wasted tears;
They left no echo of their fall;
I mourn no more my lonesome years;
This blessed hour atones for all.
I fear not all that Time or Fate
May bring to burden heart or brow,—
Strong in the love that came so late,
Our souls shall keep it always now!

Elizabeth Akers Allen

Something different and not by me.. Do you understand?

Some Days

Does it ever happen to you when you wake up and everything feels great for the first couple minutes and then your day goes from sugar to shit in the matter of seconds? Damn, I know that has happened to me in the last few weeks a few times and it seems like everything I do regardless of how it was meant comes out or across all wrong. So how do you fix these situations?

Do I give up and just say hey you win some you lose some?

Do I try to make a mends and be the humble one like always?

Do I just keep it all inside and the end result happens latter on with a big explosion?

Do I just say hey I have had enough and now its time to say goodbye?

I know what I want and I know how I want my day and everyday to be but this peaches and cream stuff is make believe so it seems to me. Can I just have a day that is great no problems???? How about the rest of the year, I know that's asking a lot right now but I know I can make it better just give me time...... If you really know what I want then show me and let me know that these days are far to few to worry about! It just seems to often then never that I have one of these days and that is why I have.....

SOME DAYS.......