Ode to a dear friend.........

My friend that has been there through my Korean experience that is my brother, for life. I know that we will part on good terms and that the times that we shared here, be them good bad or indifferent were all worth it. I know that we have been through a lot together and had each other to lean on and confide in. You are the one that I would consider true to heart and I am glad that I was able to help you find yourself you know. I am also glad that you helped me relax and start letting loose and not really being up tight about so much... You know what I mean. We will take with us our sister, Giggles, she has been the one that is off the Richter. I love you, ma, you keep the party going...(Smile) You know that you me and P had some real good times. Cara, had to be the one that made me and you turn in to alcoholics, LOL not trying to blame you...(smile) Those times will never be forgotten. Jen, she has been chillin with us for the past 6 months almost and damn, everyone has had some great times, you are off the chain and I know you mean a lot to P and me.. Yo, Smoke Dogg, you know that you are leaving with a piece of my heart. You know all of my trials and tribulations and you met Fish a piece of my past and now my present and he told you everything that I told you about me.. You just know that I am real and you have let me be me. People are so scared to be themselves and I think that I make people feel at ease around me so that they can act themselves regardless and not worry about impressing someone. My heart will be missing a big piece when you leave but I know that if I don't see a majority of the people I have met through out my military career I will see you again for sure. Make sure that you never forget that you are the one that makes a difference in so many lives and that you need to keep a good head on your shoulders and when times get rough I will be there supporting you through what ever you are going thru. Hope that you know this, I love you man.... This is not but a touch of what I want to say so stay tuned for future posts..
The only way to express is to show you this...

ODE TO A DEAR FRIEND...

Relationships

In a relationship, if I could get the five things..........that would really make my heart sing....
1. A love that wont die....
2. Eyes that wont cry.....
3. And lips that wont lie...
4. A heart that will mend...
5. A life so that I`ll sacrifice...

These are what I want I don't know what it is you want, tell me so that this thing can work. Only communication can make something work. Talk out the issues be it good or bad let that person know what is wrong. If you don't you build up so much, anger that you will begin to hate that person and the love dies. Remember a relationship, be it friends, family or lovers, is a two way street. You are probably wondering why I always write on love, but if you took the time to read you will see that I write on everything. Keep up all efforts to love like it is your first love and live life like its your last breath. Always remember have no regrets.

"You can`t make someone love you, just be the one who can be loved"...."Love is when you dont sleep and think that reality is better than a dream".........................
So keep this thing strong and remember that regardless of the relationship it is the effort you put forth that determines the results... Everything revolves around....

RELATIONSHIPS......

Everytime....

Everytime I go to sleep I think of you
Everytime I think about you I get weak
Everytime I am alone I wish you were near
Everytime I hear the phone ring I think it's you I will hear
Everytime I am about to just give up you give me hope
Everytime I need you, you are there
Everytime I want to give up you push me
Everytime I think there is no point you give me one
Everytime I want to be comforted you try your best
Everytime I need a friend you give me your full attention
Everytime I think that the world has given up you let me know they are waiting on me
Everytime I need family you step in and be my long distance love
Everytime I want to tell you thank you for all you do, you tell me thank you
Everytime I look at you I get lost and forget all the problems I am having
Everytime I think that you are leaving you stay and give me the attention I need
Everytime I act out of character I need you to know it is because I can't help it I CARE for U
Everytime you do something for me I love it, LOVE, everything....

EVERYTIME.........

I LOVE YOU.......

Three of the most powerful, miss used and abused words in the world. How can those three small words do so much? To think that without out one another they are harmless. But when you say I love you to someone that means that you are committed and would not doing anything grimey to hurt that person. No playing on the side giving your number to meaningless people, you know that in the end all this does is cause drama. You let these feelings control your emotions, some people say they love you and really just say I love you, because they think that is what you want to hear. Maybe, they say it to try to keep you, knowing they really don't love you. Despite the notion that love is all you need, you really need to be loved you can love all day, but at the end of the day, is the love being returned? Can you go on saying those words, thinking you mean them but not really? Is love in the world a game or is there still people out there that truly know what love is and understand that love is work and that you have to put all efforts forward, not half ass. You can not fully love some one if you have prior engagements. Leave the drama alone, trust is there and earned, but is taken when you act a fool. Don't leave room for error, make sure they know you care. It's not fun to be hurt, specially when you find out the others dirt. Damn, the things that happen to us in our lives is not always the best. Make sure that you are never scared to live and love, when you do it, do it all out don't hold back. Jealousy is a hard thing to hide, fight or deal with, everyone has it, how do you deal with it. I act very different then others and some might think that it is childish or crazy but the way I deal with my problems is to not talk when I am mad but to talk later when I am level headed. Nothing is resolved when you yell and scream or argue about something. If you tell someone that you love them then mean it don't just say it to hear it. I know when I have said it the few times I have always meant it, funny I never told Q I loved him, I told him I had love for him, never loved him the way I love someone now. Never thought that love would be like this, now I know it takes work and patience I knew part of that but now I know. Think about everything you say everyday and if you really do love that special someone you can whole heartedly say......

I LOVE YOU........

Maybe..........

Maybe we are supposed to meet the wrong ones before we meet the good one, because this will make us appreciate them more. Maybe, a good friend is someone that you can just sit with, without saying anything and when you walk away think that is the best conversation you ever had. Maybe, it's true that we don't know what we have until it's gone, and we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives. Maybe, when the door of happiness closes, there is always another door opening to welcome us. Maybe, we miss the opportunity to go through the new door due to the fact that we are stuck looking at the door that closed on us. Maybe, we have a lot of good things in our life that we just take for granted, unknowingly. Maybe, someone in your life gave you everything that you should have but never had in a relationship, or friendship but didn't know what to do and you hurt them in the end. Maybe, we should remember that when we love someone we should never expect love in return, we should let it grow and if it doesn't then be happy knowing that it grew in you. Maybe, we should know that it takes a minute to crush someone, an hour to like someone, a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Maybe love plays a big role in our lives and a lot of us are scared to love again from the past miss happenings. Maybe, you have everything that you ever needed right in front of your face, you just don't know what to do with it, or you might ask yourself is this for real? Maybe, there are things that we can not explain we just do them and never wonder why, do you wonder why? Maybe, life deals us the hands due to the fact that we are all made different we just have to learn to live with our imperfections. Maybe, the one you love hopefully loves you just as much if not more for everything excepts you for every flaw and imperfection that you have. Maybe I am just a person that has something to say and looking for someone to hear it, what do you think? Maybe, the person that has my love is the luckiest person in the world, the boundaries are limitless and you should no there is nothing I won't do for you. Maybe, we all have something that bonds us to life's struggles but we all have to remember that we have choices and making the one that makes you happy is the one you should choose, but remember that sometimes we have to make sacrifices to make ourselves and the ones you love happy. Maybe you should ask yourself what is in store for you, because there is always something good for you in store and remember there is always....

MAYBE.....

Never Change....

Remember the first person you fell in love with? Your love was so innocent, you had not been corrupted be false love or lies that some many of us have come to find. Remember that feeling when the two of you were apart you never felt fulfilled? Like life was so different without that special someone? Love had no plays sometimes it hurt but it felt good and gave you those silly butterflies in your stomach. You felt like a little kid in a candy store every time you saw them or thought about them. I just want that same old innocence back you know. Love should be pure, innocent and flawless. Not saying there is not pain and struggle in love but like Frederick Douglass said. "without struggle there is no progress," this is true in every aspect of life, specially when it comes to love. With love you meet and fall in love with the person for that person what ever they look like or act like and look past all their imperfections. That is why no matter how they change when you grow old you are supposed to love them regardless. The outside (body) might change but they are still the person you initially fell in love with. That is why a lot of people that are friends and lovers to you always tell you never change, they love you for you. Don't change for anyone you are unique and that is why they fell for you in the first place. Keep your oginality and everything that makes you, you. I don't ever want you to change baby you are original and I love that about you pa.....

NEVER CHANGE...........

Have I met you...

I have one question, have I met you before?
I know I love you and have feelings for you, but have I met you somewhere before?
It seems like we have known each other for awhile maybe even a time prior to now, have I met you before?
How can we have so much in common and talk on the phone and laugh like we are reminiscing of the past, have I met you before?
What makes you different from the others, is there something I don't know, have I met you before?
Why do you have this effect on me, have I met you before?
I need to know why I feel this way for you, have I met you before?
Do we have a past, present or even future together, have I met you before?
Can you calm my nerves and tell me.....

HAVE I MET YOU BEFORE......

Funny thing is I have and now I know it was there the whole time. It took you to come back, for you to see what you meant to me.. Funny how the past plays a major role on your future. You know I love you right????

Hard In The Paint.........

Can you consider this statement vulgar or uncouth? If that is what you think that means... To me it is doing the very best I can do and going above and beyond the limitations or standards set. You know that when I come in I go in hard and go out hard. The only way to get ahead in this life is to be noticed. The things that are funny is to see someone weak get their ankles broke by a mean crossover cause I took you to the hole and yes you know I went hard in the paint.!! The best thing is when you see the strong assist the weak they say only the strong survive but why would you want that? How about everyone comes out by going hard in the paint some just need a little extra support. My sister Krystal is a number one stunna and is off the chain she goes hard in the paint everyday, she has problems with her heart but she doesn't let that stop her from going out and getting dirty. She is great in the sport of volleyball and gives her all, that's going hard in the paint. My mother, is my heart she is forever doing something to help out with my daughter, she takes care of home, with my two sisters, and my step dad whose cancer is back so you know she goes hard in the paint. My grandmother, is the lifeline of our family, she ensures regardless of what she is going through and everyone else that our family stays in tact, she definitely goes hard in the paint. My Aunt Maura, you are so off the chain and keep me smiling just hope that you will never loose your childness, you go hard in the paint, you fought cancer and won. Rod, sometimes life gives you a hand that is not great but baby boy you know that there are things out there that happen for a reason, damn, look you found me after how long, coincidence, I think not, you will always come out on top, pa because you never give up, regardless I will always be there for you I got nothing but love for you baby, you always go hard in the paint, crash the boards, pa. Smoke Dogg, man the stuff that we've been through here, funny huh, never thought that life would deal you this one? You know we always talk through stuff I got you for the male perspective and the big brother aspect and you got me for the lil sister and female aspect, you are always going to be posting up and going hard in the paint. Jen, you have changed so much towards the good since me and you have been hanging out together and I think that is so great you are learning to be more self proficient and not really caring about opening up anymore, that is going hard in the paint, ma. Laura, you know since I have been here I always like joking with you and if you ever need anything you can always get at me I got your back, remember that. You have changed a lot as well, you are more relaxed and keep up the can do attitude don't get into a rut where you think everyone is picking on you, remember you could work my job...LOL. Keep going hard in the paint. Sly, you know from what I have seen and talked to you, you atleast have some sense and you definitely go hard in the paint, pa. Dawit, you know you have been through a lot pa, and you are still kickin' don't give up on anything and I won't give up on you, when you are down I will help you up and just remember that the things you have been through and you came out of made you a better person and for that you go hard in the paint. Adrion you have had a lot of growing and experience that was just thrown upon you in the past year and you handled it well I am so glad that we are fam, you will always go hard in the paint. Adrian, pa you are the one, you are always there with a comment and suggestion I hope that you keep up the knowledge and start writing more you know, keep going hard in the paint. Shami, Jerry, Cara, Giggles, and Michelle, you are all a great asset in my life and I appreciate all you do, keep going hard in the paint. Will (DeCory), you will never know how hard I went in the paint for you, but that is all right pa, everyone changes and talking to you now you seem changed and that is great. I hope that we will be friends in the future and remain that until it is exhausted, you have a great family and I know you know that keep going hard in the paint. I love all of yous, if I didn't put you in here, it doesn't mean that you aren't going hard in the paint or that you don't mean something to me, I just have to end somewhere, I will get you on one of these, keep reading and you will never be disappointed. How do you assess yourself? Can you honestly say that you go.....

HARD IN THE PAINT......

Always.....

I have heard and learned alot of things in my life. One thing that stuck with me is, a saying that went something like this. Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. Don't cry over anyone that won't cry for you. Good friends are hard to find, even harder to leave and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push yourself, actions speak louder than words. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else. Don't live in the past, because you are missing all the good stuff now.... life's too short. Friendship is like the breeze, you can not hold it, smell it, taste it, or know when it is coming. But you can always feel it, and you will always know it is there. It may come and go but you know it will always be back. Rememeber to always give your all in everything in all you do, as long as you know you did your best there is no regrets. Always love like it is your first, always play like it is your last game, always study like you are taking a final. Remember that you can make the difference in your life and in someone elses, don't hold back the potential you were given. Make sure you always smile, always say to someone even if you don't know them. Always think that there are others in worse predicaments then yourself. Always give with a kind heart, and always remember that someone loves you back. Can you say that you are the one that does everything to the fullest......

ALWAYS..........

To everyone that I have met along the way... I will ALWAYS give you my all. Who knows, when we go.... Today is today, tomorrow might not come, so holla at ya girl. If you want something or someone then go take that chance you never know they might want you....

Is the love still good

Have you ever been away and thought that when you get back everything would be the same? Is that one person you loved before or just wanted to know better different when you finally see them again? But you want to be like old times so you try it out anyways, is the love still good? Can you really say that you both haven't moved on to bigger and better things? Or honestly say that they are not the person you remember or fell in love with? Is the love still good? Keep up the fire and try to never stop it from burning instead of trying to re-kindle the fire. There is always something lost when you try to start again. Is the love still good? Have you ever asked yourself why you are with the person you are with? Is it because you think they will change and become something you want them to, or something that they once were? Is the love still good? I hope that you always can keep that fire burning strong no matter what happens, make sure you keep the love good. I know that the love is still good for me...LOL I haven't changed too much if any and I like the way that I am. I can grow and develop with the person that I am with. Yes, the love is still good, is it for you? Next time think about this do you want to remember people for who they were or do you want to take a chance and see who they are now? You might never think of them the same but it is all up to you.....

Is the love still good......

Can I be....

Can I be your sunshine on a cloudy day?
Can I be your strength when you are weak?
Can I be the one you turn to in good and bad times?
Can I be your family, friend and confidon?
Can I be the only one that seems to get you thru the day?
Can I be the one that always makes you happy?
Can I be the friend that you never had?
Can I be everything you are not?
Can I be with you for whom I am?
Can I be just me?

Can I be....

For anyone that this touches I will be there for you...

I AM............

I AM:

I am the one that love pursues
I am beauty in an ugly world
I am athletic when the world is lazy I stay active
I am envied by few and loved by many
I am purity in its purest form
I am loving, caring and nurturing in a world of disregard
I am waiting on you to catch up with me
I am your strength when you can't go on
I am your hope when all else has failed you
I am simple in a fast paced, complicated world
I am soft, gentle and humble without losing my pride
I am everything I want to be
I am just me.......

I AM.... By: ME for my lovely lil sister (Babs)

Conscious

You ever watch, Pinocchio, when you were a kid? Do you remember Jimney Cricket? Your conscious is a powerful thing and can have you do right if you listen to it. Some people chose to do otherwise. I find myself a lot of times in situations where I should have left or I doubt that the person I am doing the stuff for really doesn't care or they are just using me. Some how I put that to the side and move forward with the task at hand. I know that I can give and forget, but receive and never forget and that is the way it should be. Give with a light heart and receive with a mind full of new memories to cherish. Is your conscious clear or is it heavy with regret? Only you can clear your conscious, you should start now. I live life to the fullest everyday, love to my fullest potential and give my all in everything I do. I know that you are always going to have something on your mind but make sure that you don't carry heavy burdens with you through life. This gives extra strain and allows you to hold back from living and enjoying life to its full potential. If you know or have a feeling that what you are doing is grimey stop think about the pain and suffering that might come along with it. Your conscious is there to steer you down the right path, you live and learn and life's lessons play a role in your conscious. Remember what ever you put into life you will get back, your kindness is always rewarded may not always be right away but it will come back to you. Your wrong doings will come back to you ten times over. Think about that voice the next time you want to do something, it is telling you the right thing that is your......

CONSCIOUS....

Imagine That

Never would have in a dream that would be considered one of the best, thought that I would come to have daughter that is so beautiful and smart. She is the one that makes me get through the hardest situations, no matter what I go through I know that she is there waiting for me. I have to set the example, me a mom who would have imagined that? Not me, I am a kid myself, always playing and having fun. I found that you don't have to change all that much when you have a kid you just have to be more strict and watch what you do in front of them. My daughter is my best friend and I am glad to have been blessed with a child like this. Funny how I used to talk alot of junk and say I don't ever want to be married never want kids and I am never going to change. I have come to this median in life where, I want a family, I'm ready to settle down, but the other one I don't know if I will ever grow up all the way. I like to have fun, can't lose my edge. There is a time to have fun and i know when the time to be serious is so why should I have to lose all of me all together? You ever think that you never want kids? Well one day that will change and you will find yourself saying I want a kid that I can spoil, oh they are so cute. I think that my friends tease me when they get to see the other side of me but I am all right with that, I love to cook and all that, imagine that, me???? Are you next? Did you ever think that you would be where you are now? Have you done what you've wanted or thought you would? Have you changed and is it really all that bad? Now that you are who you are, is it what you thought or is so different that you never would have....

IMAGINED THAT....

Big Thangs

Never thought that I would be where I am today. I had scholarships for college but choose a different path. Do I regret that? No, I do think about how my life might be, but I would not change it, for the things I have been taken through have much more value to me then anything I can express. I am glad that I have met everyone I have and with that I take with me life long friends that I will always hold close to heart. I am so much more at ease with myself today compared to the day prior and more so then a few years ago. People know me for my sayings, my lovely personality (shy, loud, caring, punk...etc.), my craziness, and the total package. You can't tell me if you have been around me that you didn't take something from me, for instance a saying (specially that) you find yourself saying, booty, doggie, yo, something off the wall you know.... I always have something smart to say until I get around someone and they talk that crap that makes me turn red... You know what I'm talking about...LOL We all do big thangs everyday, in our own way. Be it doing good at work, school, practice, or just doing something that makes you happy or making that sacrifice for someone. That is doing big thangs, I have come so far and I feel I do big thangs everyday. Making people happy is my number one... I will always try to make you happy baby boy and you know that you make me happy so just keep doing you, naw mean. My friends and family I love you and would never leave you out of the big thangs that are just starting in my life. I got you regardless of anything you might have thought about me, I hold down who I am with and whoever holds me down will be with me in the end, on top.... I said it before, "Can't stop won't stop", live life to this, the day you stop, the day you admit you quit and no longer have meaning. Don't ever give up, I will never give up on you. So what Big Thangs have you done today? Then next time you do something that makes you happy, you buy something new, do something kind for someone else or made a sacrifice but it made you feel good; guess what you are doing...

BIG THANGS..........

Steady Pace....

Remember that you can make it, you just have to learn to go at a steady pace. There is so much to accomplish but you can set goals and time lines then they are all in arms reach. If we learn how to take goals and aspirations and put them into a schedule then they can be achieved. Nothing is too far out of reach if you have the will to work for it. Relationships are the same way, if you go to fast you are bound for disaster, if you move to slow then you are eventually going to lose interest in one another. If you can move at a steady pace and learn to progress together then you grow together. Never leave the other behind, communication is a key to progression and a big step forward in a relationship. Things are never going to go as planned so remember that and plan to have something go astray. When you plan for the stuff to go wrong then you are not so flustered when it does happen and you find yourself dealing with the situation, cool, calm and collective. I feel that I have grown and now I am taking any relationship I may find myself in at a steady pace. I was young before and thought I knew what I wanted just like everyone thinks they know, things, taste and peoples outlook on life change daily. I know now that what I want is real solid ground, and someone to hold me down. I know I found someone that is like that, but will be remain? No one knows the answer to that you can't change someone, you can only love them and work through their flaws and hope that they stay with you through smooth and hard times. Take a look at your life and see where you are. Can you honestly say that you are where you want to be and are you going to slow, to fast or are you going at A....

STEADY PACE......

Boo Boo

What comes to your mind when you think of this word??? Hmmmmmmmm. I know what you are thinking and to me it is not even like that. Do you remember Yogi and Boo Boo? I do and I loved that cartoon. My father used to call me his little Boo Boo. I used to be embarrassed of that nickname but now I know the meaning. I like it, it is cute and means so much more to me know then an annoying nickname. Have you ever had a nickname and you never wanted anyone to know it? There are so many of us that have nicknames that we are ashamed of, but when you think of it you should be proud of it. Words have different meanings to everyone. Boo Boo could mean something nasty but it could also mean something sweet like a cute nickname. Thanks pops, I will always be your little Boo Boo. I am so proud of my pops and my family to say the least. Think about your past growing up and remember your nicknames from, your friends and family. Think about what they mean to you now and be proud of them, I am. One question for you.... Can you be my Yogi, and me your,

BOO-BOO......

Inspiration

I have a saying that I like to say to say; "Hope comes from inspiration, inspire someone today".. This says a lot just in a few words. I try to help people and give them positive motivation. I have inspiration everyday I wake up to great friends, family, past loves, my man. You all just make it a better life for me to lead. I hope that I can be such a great inspiration to all of you and to my daughter. I love all of you very much and hope that in someone I have touched your lives for the best. Baby you have done so much for me and you will never know how much your support means to me. That is all the inspiration I need, support is a major inspiration in someone's life. To my friends, you are always there to give me support when I need it and I try to open up, you always tell me the truth be it bad or good, I appreciate that. My family, you are always there to listen and talk to me no matter what time I call you. I love you all for that. To, Will, I am glad that you put me through what you did it made me a better person. To, Q, I doubt he will ever see this, but thanks for all the pain it made me stronger and makes me want more, you gave me the will to never accept second best. How many people affect your life? Are you someone's inspiration? Be mine and I will be yours. That is all you can ask, will you be my...

INSPIRATION....

Let go....

Sometimes life deals you a hand that is not the greatest, but you have to learn how to let go. I have so many things that I have held on to for the longest and now just recently I am learning to let go. Keeping all that extra luggage is not all that healthy and you really can't progress. I am letting go, of all the painful memories but learn from them instead of carring them with me, letting go of all the wrongful doings that have been bestowed upon me by friends, family and just people in general, letting go of my mistakes and flaws that I criticise myself for everyday. That is all I have to do is let go and remember who I am. Be yourself and learn from past mishaps and all the other things that have happened be it good or bad. Remember to move forward you must remember your past but learn how to let it go....... I am comfortable with the person I am with and find it so much easier now being with him to let go of the past, all the pain that I have stored.. Thank you, you are there by e-mail, phone, you are just there and that is what I need. That's all I ask, so because of that I have learned to move on. Ask yourself this one question can you let go, start living for today and the future without all the extra luggage and pain? It is hard but to all of you that read this I challenge you to leave the past where it is, behind us, take from it what you may, but the rest has to be left behind. Can you.....

LET GO...

LOVE

You are now reading the inspirations of J. Boogie...This is love 101 sit back and learn a few things about LOVE. For real for real, love is funny, it can make you feel happy, light on your feet, it almost makes you feel like you are the greatest thing on Earth. But love has flaws, it can make you crazy, just out right off the chain, where you would do things a normal sane person to say the least would not do. I think that love is great if you find that one that is not going to play with your emotions but never hesitate to love someone you never know. Remember that you are the one that holds the key. If you should chose to let someone in or they just snuck in and you ended up in love. The true test of faith is if your love and their love is genuine or if it is just mearly puppy love, infatuation, a crush you know the deal. It is hard to tell, and love is the hardest four letter word to give an actual meaning or definition to. My definition is just doing things for the one you love, spending time together, can't sleep without them, constantly on your mind, you miss them before you even say goodbye, making sacrifices. You know going that extra mile to please them and if they love you it will not go unoticed and all your hard work and efforts will be returned. Love to me is sticking through the hard and good times, love is not easy it is a job all in itself you have to work hard at it to achieve it and once you have it, maintenance is the key. Don't think because you are in love and they love you that it will always be there, there's a thin line between love and hate and you need to decifer between the two. Love is all too often abused, people take for granted what they have or sometimes they use it to gain the advantage. Overall, love is a powerful thing and when used right you will be happy. Make sure that you are not the one abusing love for your advantage... Ask yourself this have you ever told someone that you loved them but you didn't, you just said it to make them happy because you thought that is what they wanted to hear or to get something from them? I can say honestly, NO, I have not and will not.... You should never be really scared of love it is a good thing no matter how many times you fail just keep loving someone will love you back. Don't get lost along the way to finding TRUE.....

LOVE