Shake 'Em Off....

Funny thing is that regardless of what you do someone is always there to hold you back, tell you that you're not good enough and ridiculing every move that you make. Funny thing is you can be doing your best be peaked at your full potential, but that is not good enough for the haters. All I can say is that a song comes to mind and it goes: "they smile in your face, while all the time they want to take your place.....Backstabbers." Yo, if this blog is rude or you have nothing better to do but ridicule it or think that you know someone so you judge writtings hey it's your world, I'm just a squirel.. It's all good this page is for anyone to read, post a comment but tread softly cause the fingers you point three are pointing back at you. Look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself is what you are doing yesterday, today or tomorrow where you thought you would be? Probably not, funny thing is your life didn't amount to ..... well you can figure that one out, so stop trying to drag others down. Yo, on another note I would like to tell my friends (my true friends) that I got nothin' but love for ya... The few of you that are close to me and really do know me keep your heads up and remember to..... Shake 'Em Off...... Just remember that Haters are all around us to just shake 'em off and keep doing you I am here for my friends, family and just so you know I am here.... Hate on haters, we going to do us....

Say it Isn't So....

The world seems to be in turmoil right now... What's really going on? I watch the news and fear for my daughter's future to see that the world is turning into chaos either by nature or by peoples beliefs being a conflict with one another. If you look at our past it is crazy that all wars in some way had to do with religion and now they are still that way. When will we as Americans realize to keep our noses out of everyone else's plate and just take care of home? It is sad when you walk down the streets and see all these homeless people and majority of them are Vets, we can serve our country in a time of crisis but come home and amount to nothing. Is that what Americans do is consider Vets worthless? Ignorance is all around us everyday you hear someone say they hate the military and everything that it stands for and they spit on troops or protest against them. What they don't realize is that they have no choice but to do what the commander in chief has told them to do. Soldiers might not like it, but it's a way of life and when you sign and raise that right hand you swear to protect our rights against all foreign and domestic. So the next time you see a vet on the side of the street that is homeless thank him or her I am not telling you to pay them but remember that they made the ultimate sacrifice for out country. I just hope that my daughter never has to see the world turn to chaos due to poor or greedy leadership and that our troops don't suffer anymore than they already have. The family's and loved ones left behind have my utmost respect. So think of this and if you see something that looks wrong think or say out loud.....

Say it Isn't So......

Dedicated to my friends, family and fellow members of the Armed Forces and anyone this touches. Keep doing it BIG. Holla. ONE

Big Moves

In life we all make decisions that we are not to sure about but we do it because we get bored and we are unhappy with our current situation. I know that I have one of the best friends in the world the funny thing is that I never thought that I would get close to a friend again the way that best friends do. I lost my best friend that I grew up with a couple weeks prior to Kiyara being born, he was shot at close range in the heart. That took a big toll on me and I just tried to close myself off from everyone. I get close but never too close to my friends but recently I became close and made a best friend that I am glad helped me realize that everyone needs someone to talk to. The funny thing is now that I am making moves I am happy and I know now that the Army is not a safe haven nor a shoulder to lean on in unstable situations. It is something that works you and lets you know that you are expandable so there should be no issue letting go since they throw us out the door with a swift kick and say good luck. So I ask you this, working for a company as impersonal as the military is do you think that I would take a look back over my shoulder, stutter step or even hesitate to think for an instance that I messed up and need to go back. NOT ON DUTY.... It is greener on the other side and I am here for you regardless of anything that happens remember that the ones that show you they really care and are genuine to you will show that they mean what they say. Hope that one day eveyone can make do it big and have friends that support you through all the good and bad times. It is hard to go out and just make....

Big Moves.

G, thank you for all you have done for me and making me realize that what my number one is. Thank you again ma and keep doing you and know that I am always here for you my fam is my heart and you are my fam. ONE LOVE ma... You know how soft I am, I love you ma and so does Bookie.

Choosing a New Direction...

I am at a point in my life where I need to choose a new direction in life. I am at the point of weighing out all my options, I either stay in the military (re-up) or I get out and venture on to a road less traveled. I am thinking about going out and doing it up as far as going and trying new things going out to make a real family not saying that the friends I have made in my military venture are not family but one of my own. My daughter deserves better than what the military is offering no amount of money or gifts can make up for the time lost during my military tour. I am looking into Boston at the time, I think that would be a great place to settle down and just have a family.

I know that this is a hard decision and one that will have to be thought out in depth and in time I will have to decide where and what I will do. I think that if and when I decide to break away from the Army that this will be an enormous relief, I will always remember the great experiences I've had and all of the friends I have made. But everyone knows that you come to a point in your life where you have a fork in your road you take the paved road or the dirt road that is not on the map. No real direction, nothing is written or for sure, no real security and it is not always the safest but you know it possibly is the correct route. I am ready for that step and so I have safely decided that these next 2 years I will be planning out my time and looking for a job and all that good stuff for after military life. When my friends or whoever comes to this point in their life, I will be here to support you in whatever aspects you need me to. This is scary but I have to start now by.....

CHOOSING A NEW DIRECTION.......

Half Step....

What I have been around and the experiences I have had through out my lifetime, have made me realize that if I half step then my life is worthless and I am done. You half step in the hood you get your life took. You half step in the military you loose your value, respect, dignity, possibly rank, money or more. Keep doing it up out there fam and peeps that have done it up for me and kept me on top of my game. That made me keep the beat of my drum real and make sure to correct myself if I was half steppin'. There are so many people out there that never really understand their real reason to be here, well I might not be here to give you the answers but for real I can help you and give you the advice I know from my experiences and that is all it is.

Grains of salt are all around us but real friends are here until the end, they don't care about your imperfections they accept you for you and if you half step they help you catch up. I have some good friends that hold me down and I got them in the same respect. If you too good to be around other people and listen to realism and true facts then you can move on, but don't get caught half steppin' around me because I will take your damn cookies. That is a cliche' huh and can you figure it out? Nope, probably not but I am here to tell you I am glad I was born in the life that I was without a silver, gold or even bronze spoon in my mouth, plastic worked fine for me.

I have figured this much, if you were born with it all you half step and end up having some damn issues in life and I see it everyday not being competent enough to make decisions, no street savvy and no real life experiences. Then have the ignorance to come out and say that they have some from the military. Not on duty, yo ma or pa keep it gully and remember that you have nothing on most and can learn something from everyone. Just remember that life throws us challenges to see if we will give up and.....

HALF STEP......

On TOP......

My game, yes I can say that I am on top of my game. Do you know what it means to be "on top"? I don't think that most people view this as I do but yo, that's why this is my blog and you are reading it, why? Hmmmm, that is one question you need to ask yourself why you keep coming back to read the words of this page.... Is it because I am on top of my game?

I must be up on something because I write and it is so easy to be me and it is so hard for so many to be just what they are, YOU. Being yourself means that you are on top of your game, is this a hard task at hand? Yes, to some it is, but you need not fear for there are always strong support systems in place to help you succeed at being the best you can. I know that I will be here for anyone one of my friends, family, or just associates. Remember that you are never alone out there sometimes you may feel that you are or run into bad luck more often than never but you can still come out on top.

I may be a little rough around the edges sometimes, say things that I don't always mean but everyone is like that from time to time. Life deals you hands that are unexpected it is how you come out of the situation, which determines whether you are staying on top of your game or not. Things are not all pretty and peachy all the time I know I never really had all the good things in life, glad that I have been able to have all the grimy situations dealt to me it kept me on top of my game. I will always keep improving my imperfections and trying to make the best of any situation in which I find myself. This helps me keep my game up and remain...

ON TOP......

I write for myself and for anyone who wants to read it. This is for my friends and fam and anyone else, this is my knowledge to you. That is why my page is called My View 2 You.... DAMN, some people need to step up and gain some self respect remember that all people have their own perceptions and this is your reality we may not always see eye to eye but work with it. Make small sacrifices and don't ridicule what others do, just do you! Just another way that you can keep your game, ON TOP....

Misinterpretation

Damn, I already wrote one called "Clarify" and if you really knew me then you wouldn't leave comments that talk out of your fourth point of contact. Funny how people are quick to make a judgment like I said before, prior to knowing someone. I have nothing to prove to anyone and if you really know me than you would know that I am never afraid to be up front and blunt with the people around me. I don't bite my tongue for anyone and I will not start I will always be real and this is funny to me that whoever you are was not real enough to put their name on their comment...???? If I think it is who I think, than here is to you, keep writing other peoples words and feel good about not being real, but be hesitant about what and how you judge others. You are as fake as they come, might have a lil game play with the words but other than that your legs to damn weak to support your total bull sh*@. If I knew for sure who you were or if you e-mail me because everyone knows my e-mail; educatedthug4u78@yahoo.com go ahead and grow some let me know who you are and I will let you know the real me.... Are you scared or maybe now I flipped the script on you and made you think about going and looking in your own mirror???? I know that you read that one, how about this, I am done no more to say but keep it real and look at yourself prior to judging.

How is it plain and simple in black and white the words we read are all so easily misinterpreted? It might be due to blindness, or shear hate for someone or something people envy what they want to be like and hate what that don't know or don't understand. Hate is nothing more than a cover up for fear. I will leave you with my quote, "Hate is a form of miseducation, to accept this is a form of ignorance, strive for excellence." (me)

So in closing you can hate me now, but I won't stop now, NEVER!!!! So try to get right and remember that this is all a fabrication of your mind and it is one big......

MISINTERPRETATION......

SIMPLY PUT....

The life I choose to lead it not always the way that I want nor is yours the way you probably want yours. Have you ever sat back with some time on your hands and thought, what the hell am I doing here? I know that most people do this at some point in their life, but when you do reach this aspect in your life sit and reflect on all the good things that have come from the life you have already led. Have you ever met someone and then they leave from your life and you never see or hear from them again? I know that myself being in the military I have met a lot of people like this and I wish I could still talk to them, you know just ask them how they are doing, what they have been doing since the last time I saw them. The friends we make and lose are always a keep sake part of our lives.

Remember that you can't always walk away from every problem that occurs. We have to take a deep breath and say I can do this, stand up no matter what the consequences may be and bite the bullet. Leaving issues unresolved now will catch up with you later on in life. Be it the life that you were meant to lead, the one you choose, or just the life that you never wanted, it is our lives and we can try to change them or be content in all aspects of life and live this one out to the fullest. I know that if I don't like something about myself I try my best to change it, I didn't like drinking so I quit, I am going to the gym for my personal satisfaction not anyone else's. Just do it for you, not because you think that you have to impress someone else. Only you have the final decision in the life you lead, we maybe there to help, guide, or give assistance to you along the way but the change and will comes from you. Do you have what it takes to go out on a limb and live the life that you have always wanted?

Life is just to complicated to be.....

SIMPLY PUT.....

Just Blaze.....

First off I want to come out and say this is not what you think it is... One thing I have learned in my day is never burn bridges, because you never know if you will have to cross that bridge again. Now I am here to tell you, you have one life to live so do you. Why worry about tomorrow or yesterday when there is today? The funny thing is that we are what society wants us to be, we never really go out there and do what we want. We are molded from birth to be an ample part of society. Funny you probably never looked at this way.

I am here just to tell you my views if you see it as knowledge take it and pass it on cause knowledge is nothing to anyone if no knows you are brilliant. Right? I have so many people around me everyday and I want to ask them what they did today, just because I know that is really not what "they" wanted to??? Not too many people will say man, I love my job, or just say they did what their one true desire in life is. So the next time you think of all these things think how happy you are at the moment. If you are not happy in your present situation then only you can change it and make it to what you want it to be.

In closing I want you to think of this quote that means a lot to me. "Happiness makes up in height, what it lacks in length." (Robert Frost)

So go out there and live your life and in my words....

JUST BLAZE!!!!!

Sunny Days....

You know that song "Sunny Days" the theme song to Sesame Street? I know you know so stop playng like you all too good for that show, it was the shit in the day. I love Ernie and Cookie Monster was my favorite. But anyway, on the subject Sunny Days, I have so many good memories. Lately like, going out with my friend Edith and her boyfriend (PJ). You know we all had a ball at the amusement park (Seoul Land), we have fun everytime we hang out. We are always acting like little kids and I like to do that to break away from the professionalism that I deal with in the military every day. I have good memories of playing with my daughter, my little number one stunner she is a bright shinning start and I hope that she never dims, with age. We all lose some of our shine with age if you let it go.

I have memories with so many of my friends, cousins, family, you know... I wish that I still had all the pictures but I still know I have all the memories. I miss all my friends that I have made along the way. I know that there are more Sunny Days to come and I will always have them to look back on you know. High School, just growing up in general, Basic, AIT, Ft. Benning, Germany, Ft. Lewis, Ft. Sam and now Korea... There are so many people I would like to name and say that yes we had Sunny Days together. I miss all of you and can't wait to see you again or even hear from you again. Remember there are always more Sunny Days even in your worst stormy days. Keep the memories of all your....

SUNNY DAYS.....

I know that this was not really like me on this one but you know I had to go out on a limb and do a lil something different. Here are some pics of me and some of my sunny days and the people that contribute. I miss my friends. Love all of you...

Clarify

Yo, first off let me, let you know that when I write it is really the way I think and what's on my mind at the time. Don't get it twisted with me writing to a certain someone because you would just make a fool out of yourself. The funny thing the more I write the better I feel so it just releases everything, past, present and future. You feel me on this? I have read some comments from people, be them friends or friends of friends and they think that I am writing about someone that I am with now or at the time of the blog... NO, that is incorrect it was just something that I had on my mind maybe for a long time and I was trying to get it off my chest. We all have burdens that weigh us down. Just remember that this is my release.

I am happy at the time with who I am and if I am with someone you will know soon enough.. LOL Keep it real and make sure you keep everyone thinking they know you. There are three people in all of us, the one we know, the one our friends know and the one that other people think they know. So who are we really? Just something to think about. I will close this and just so you know this is just to let you know about me and my writings it is just.....

CLARIFICATION....

Why me....

Is that conceded to ask this? For real everyone wants to know, why me...? You know how it goes and I want to know, why me? I want to know why my kindness is taken for weakness? Why is my ability to be civil taken as someone that is a walk over? Can you tell me why I am mild tempered and accept so much shit from friends but once pissed off, piss everyone else off? Why is it easy to hear someone say I love you, but hard for me to say it? Probably due to the fact that, I am not out here trying to lead anyone on, I am here to be truthful and blunt. I have to keep it real for myself and for everyone that is around me. Why is it so easy for people to lie, yet it is almost impossible for me to. Why do I have a conscience and it seems the rest of the world has yet to find theirs? Why is it so hard for me to find someone and stay happy with them.?

This is just a few things that I wanted to put out there. I hope that you can compare and think that maybe these are some of the questions that you ask yourself sometimes. Get at me and let me know what you think about this one? So can anyone tell me....

WHY ME...???

Breaking Point....

Look at life like a challenge, a test, to see how far everyone can push you to your breaking point. I am not going to meet my breaking point for a long time I am hoping. I live life to the fullest, some say too blessed to be stressed, I say YA RIGHT. Feel me on this, stress is a natural part of life there is negative stress and positive stress. We need stress to live a healthy lifestyle. So next time you here that, stupid saying that some body with nothing but time on their hands made up, tell them I beg to differ. I know that many people meet their breaking point early in life and others live life all out and and meet their breaking point late in life. How much can you take of someone always picking at you? Do you know when enough is really enough? Can you tell me if you know your....

BREAKING POINT????

Mirror

Sometimes I sit back and look at my life as through a mirror. I see all of my choices reflecting back to me and how they changed my life be them good and bad. Our life is a reflection of all of our past decisions. Sometimes we have to take the time and look out of the course of our lives and wonder how or why we did some of the things that we did? I have recently looked in to my life and realized that damn, what the hell was I thinking do that?? I can look in the mirror and see how I have changed and grown through my own personal life's decisions.

Have you ever looked at someone and said, "Damn, they have had a rough life"??? I know that I have and it is funny because we don't know what they see when they look in their mirror, but we know what reflection their mirror is showing us. All of us are just a reflection that our own mirror wants everyone to see us as.... Funny you can look at the Fairy Tale Snow White and see that the mirror, mirror on the wall saw Snow White as the fairest of all, but the evil queen wanted to be the one. Her mirror new that she was grimy and let her know that there was someone out there that looked better.

Don't get it bent though. Looks are far from everything, they are what people see at first and if you are really shallow then that is all you want, a trophy to say the least. If you want a companion, a lover and an understander...(I know I made it up LOL, it sounds good though) then you need to look into their mirror and see what's really good. Like people say and I know for a fact, trial and error, you can have the finest person but once you get to know them they turn ugly. Maybe you don't have the prettiest looking person, but once you get to know them their reflection changes and you find that you have someone very attractive.

What do you see when you look at me? But most important do you like what you see when you look at your personal reflection in your own......

MIRROR......

Who Are You to Judge Me?????

Who are you to judge me or anyone for that matter
Who are you to judge me due to the color of my skin
Who are you to judge me for the company I keep
Who are you to judge me by the way I carry myself
Who are you to judge me for the way I talk or act
Who are you to judge me due to minor imperfections
Who are you to judge me for my pass mishaps
Who are you to judge me due to whom I am related
Who are you to judge me due to my beliefs
Who are you to judge me by the way I dress
Who are you to judge me for minor faults that I might
not know that I have
Who are you to judge me by the amount of money
I have or don't

I could go on forever on this subject... But I know that you are no one for only God can judge me now... If I mess up today, I pay for it tomorrow. If I see fit to be wrong during this life, I shall be judged and punished for that in my next life. So as I end this let me just ask you this....

WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME....?

Funny thing is we all judge people for one or more of the things listed above and find ourselves acting as if we are better than the next. We are not, we are made with imperfections and good and bad qualities that is what makes this place so special, everyone is not the same. Can you answer the question I have put forth today in this blog???

you know

Only God can judge me
Therefore I dont care what you think say or even heard about me
Who is you to judge me anyway
You arent the all mighty so it really doesnt matter what you say
You can faze me hate me for who I am
Im a natural born hustla and I am what I am
Trust me if I cared about the way you thought of me
Then it would honesty suck like any other injury
If we cool then we cool
Never hate on me never act a fool
Trust me my bullsh#t tolerance level is real low
If you a chick then know this Im all about my doughI have too many other things in mind than sit and try to figure you out.
I made that mistake when I never should have been in doubt
For all you Kat's that think you know P
You better take another look cause thorough bred is about cheese
I don't have time to hang out and chill
Every move I make is calculated like craftsman's steel
There's only a few things that I put before my life
Other than them the rest is out of my life.
So if you don't know me and you trying to get to know me
Here's a tip come correct or leave.
I'M ONE OF THE REALEST SIMPLY PUT!


YOU KNOW

Can you stand the RAIN????

This is a question to everyone in any type of relationship....
The meaning is hid in the words.

If you know the meaning or think you understand it
Let me know if you can stand it?
Who knows, you may think you can
But in the end you are just a lost and helpless lamb.

With the rain comes heartache and pain
That's ok because it's better than the shame
You feel when you are broken apart and lost in the dark
Funny thing is you're never that far apart

From the love of your life
It may seem like this life is a bit trife
At times you seem to think that I have given up
But think about life as a half full cup

Afforded the opportunity to be with me
Would you take it or just leave me lonely
I thought that we would make it through anything
But when times are hard you give up on the simple things

This time is for you to reflect and think
Not for me to help you swim or sink
I will be here no matter how bad I am hurting
But do you think that you can bare this burden?

I know that I can make it through the rain...
Just on more thing......

CAN YOU STAND THE RAIN??????

Tension....

This word is small yet you know the meaning. You feel its presence. You know the importance of the words, break the tension and relieve some tension. Everyday you deal with tension or stress, but there is always sometime of tension in the air. You go to work and there is someone there that just doesn't click right with the rest of the group, this is the tension that you have to deal with. The uneasy feelings, emotions and thickness in the air. How do you relieve, break or ease the tension in your life?

I am one that is known for always smiling and being per say a smart ass... But there is tension in my life as well. I just try not to let it show and I don't bring it to work, there is work tension and personal tension. My personal tension is just what it says personal so I leave that at home to be dealt with personally, by me...

If you ever feel that the tension is too much and you don't know where to turn, go release some by talking to a good friend, I am always here for anyone. Read, write, draw, listen or make music, whatever your hobby is do this to calm your nerves. Sometimes, the person making the tension doesn't know that they are and you need to just talk it out with them, majority of the time they will be willing to work it out with you.

Some things in life are just not meant to be known to other people. My tension in my personal life is one... You thought I was really going to release some tension on here? Are you crazy? There is always another time to just let go and ease the......

TENSION.......

Smoke Dogg....

What can I say I knew a great person, one that I admired and looked to amongst this problematical world. I try to figure out why I was given the opportunity to meet and become so close to a person of this stature?? Maybe, I was afforded the chance due to some of the trials and tribulations that I have encountered in my life? No, I think that I met this great person due to all the pain that we have both been through in our short lives here. How can it be that the world is so large and yet two people of the same caliber meet and end up looking out and helping one another. If I knew better I have met you before...

I know that you were the one that I went to in times of need and in times of confusion and disarray and I appreciate all of that. Thank you, so very much you will never know what impact you had on me. I will never forget the day I met you and the day that I to tell you goodbye for now, my brother. For I will always consider you family no matter where we find ourselves in journey through the rest of our lives. I will be here for you as I know that you will always be there for me. I just want you to know that I love you and miss you so much. Your companionship is greatly missed and will never be forgotten.

This is for a great person and an even greater brother.... Forever my life.....

SMOKE DOGG.....

THIS TIME......

This time, I will forgive
This time, I will let you come back and start over
This time, I will talk to you before you walk out of my life
This time, I might be the soft and understanding of the
two and try to work it out
This time, I will be the more passive of the two and give in
This time, I will be nurturing and sensitive to your needs
This time, I will try to understand what I did wrong and
how I can fix it
This time, I will apologize for the whatever it was that
went wrong
This time, I am going to work it out and keep us strong

This time, I have come to realize that I am the one every time making the sacrifice to fix what we have as a team done wrong. When is it going to be your turn to tell me this time???? Let us try this one on for size; we work on this thing together??? Maybe, just next time there won't be a.....

THIS TIME.....

I hope that you liked this one I know that it has been more than a minute since I posted on here but I have been busy... Sorry to whom ever reads these on the regular. I know that in everyone's life there is a this time... Just leave me a message and let me know what's good..